This is this month’s reading group book. It was also featured on The TV Book Club. On the programme there is an interview with the author Clare Morrall. She says that she wanted to explore what would happen if a husband/father suddenly disappeared. In fact I think she covers the thoughts of the wife (Kate) left behind quite well. But it is very introspective and miserable and so it feels like hard work to read. I found the husband’s (Felix) story to be inconsistent and unbelievable at many stages, for example how could a man who was so determined to create a happy family just disappear without even letting them know he was alive?

The one thing I did enjoy was how well the younger children – Millie and Rory – are imagined. Their interactions with other youngsters took me back to my own childhood. I remember admiring older/prettier girls and at school the way Millie does. I remember trying to deal with bullying behaviour the way Rory does: thinking that I could get the perpetrator to be my friend by making them laugh.

Overall I didn’t like this book. The story isn’t convincing and the book drags on and on as there’s nothing of note happening during most of it. The ending is rather an anticlimax. I was relieved that it was over.

(28th in 2012)

I’ve just finished reading this book. I really enjoyed it. It is written in a very clear and approachable style which makes it a perfect holiday read. I identified with the narrator’s situation: a young woman to whom something bad happens in her late teens which results in her living a safe but very limited life into her twenties. The author seems to have done very thorough research on quadriplegia. It’s not a a subject that sit comfortably in chick lit but somehow Jojo Moyes pulls it off.

There were many times when I felt like I was reading a book for teenagers but there are odd passages that are breathtakingly vivid and recognisable. I suppose the writing style is simple and unsophisticated in comparison to the last book I read: The Sense of an Ending. I was found that I was surprised when I came across the occasional perfectly articulated passage. My favourite example is when Lou goes to a classical concert for the first time:

The conductor stepped up, tapped twice on the rostrum, and a great hush descended. I felt the stillness, the auditorium alive, expectant. Then he brought down his baton and suddenly everything was pure sound. I felt the music like a physical thing, it didn’t just sit in my ears, it flowed through me, around me, made my senses vibrate. It made my skin prickle and my palms dampen. Will hadn’t descibed any of it like this.

I found this book took me through a range of emotions. It is what they call a page turner. I didn’t find it funny as apparently others have but parts of it are deeply moving.

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I was completely gutted by the ending. It was a good ending but it was very upsetting and not the uplifting conclusion I’d expected. I do respect the author for taking that route though.

(27th in 2012)

This is a very well written book. Lucid and wonderfully perceptive, Barnes’ writing reminds me of McEwan’s.

The theme of the book is memory and how it creates a version of the past that doesn’t match up with other people’s versions or even one’s own version from a different time. That’s before ‘The Truth’ even comes into consideration. The blurb calls it ‘the story of one man coming to terms with the mutable past’.

I found the ending a little odd because some details are missing, leaving the reader to fill in the gaps using their imagination. At first I thought I had missed something but I found discussions about the conclusion on online forums expressing similar opinions to mine. However, I can forgive that since the book is a very good read; I was completely absorbed in the narrator’s journeys through his memories. The book strikes several nerves with me: I am painfully aware that I attempt to rewrite my own history (I suppose to try to save face) and I am always producing justifications for my illogical actions. Perhaps one day I will train myself to be more logical, like Mark is. In the meantime I will be very careful about what I say in all my written communications…

This is my favourite passage:
[Adrian] had a better mind and a more rigorous temperament than me; he thought logically, and then acted on the conclusion of logical thought. Whereas most of us, I suspect, do the opposite: we make an instinctive decision, then build up an infrastructure of reasoning to justify it. And call the rest common sense.

Of course it’s deliberate but reading through some bits of the book again, they are chillingly prophetic. This is one of Adrian’s speeches in a History lesson:

‘Indeed, isn’t the whole business of ascribing responsibility a kind of cop-out? We want to blame an individual so that everyone else is exculpated. Or we blame a historical process as a way of exonerating individuals. Or it’s all anarachic chaos, with the same consequence. It seems to me that there is – was – a chain of individual responsibilities, all of which were necessary, but not so long a chain that everybody can simply blame everyone else. But, of course, my desire to ascribe responsibility might be more a reflection of my own cast of mind than a fair analysis of what happened. That’s one of the central problems of history, isn’t it, sir? The question of subjective versus objective interpretation, the fact that we need to now the history of the historian in order to understand the version that is being put in front of us.’

(26th in 2012)

This was my reading group’s book of the month. Again, it’s not one I would have chosen to read myself but that’s one of the reasons I joined a group: to discover new writing.

I found Cranford quite difficult to read; the construction of sentences and vocabulary used are very unfamiliar to me. I also found the first chapter – Our Society – very annoying. All the silly rules they live by and the way everyone colludes to keep up appearances.

As I got used to the style of the writing I was more able to appreciate the humour and poignant moments in the book: the cat swallowing the lace that was soaked in milk, the cow dressed in flannel and Martha nudging a guest when he took too long to help himself to potatoes and the card game where they didn’t want to wake the snoozing Mrs Jamieson but at the same time endeavoured to accommodate Mrs Forrester’s deafness. The funniest was when Lady Glenmire gets engaged while Mrs Jamieson is away: ‘The person whom she had left in charge of her house to keep off followers from her maids to set up a follower of her own!’

There are sad times: the death of Peter’s mother, the death of Miss Deborah Jenkyns. I felt for Miss Matty when she starts to wear a widow’s hood after the death of Mr Holbrook. She is forced to face the loss of her youth, the missed chances of married life and children but she puts a brave face on it, saying how lucky she is to have such good friends.

It is touching that, in the end, friendships do prevail. When Miss Matty become bankrupt her friends club together to anonymously help her financially, when Miss Jessie Brown wants to follow her father’s corpse to the grave, Miss Deborah Jenkyns accompanies her even though women didn’t usually attend funerals ‘in polite society’.

I watched a couple of episodes of the BBC dramatisation of Cranford when I was halfway through the book. It brought the book alive for me. I don’t think I’d have enjoyed the remainder of the book as much if I hadn’t seen the characters and places brought to life on screen; I needed it to fire up my imagination.

Note: If you’re going to read this book for the first time I would recommend the version that the above photo links to (rather than the free Kindle version) as it contains notes, a glossary and interesting appendices.

(25th in 2012)

I must admit that periodically felt disengaged from this book because I was unfamiliar with many important issues it covered. I don’t know much about the Vietnam War or American politics. I didn’t know the difference between different Christian denominations. I’m not interested in religion and I have to admit to regarding a belief in God as a weakness.

In contrast to the ‘heavy’ stuff there are some very funny scenes in the book which made me guffaw. There are poignant times too; Owen genuinely moved me. He was such a good friend to Johnny. Like me, he is tiny but very serious. Unlike me, he has the power to manipulate. I couldn’t find much likeable about the narrator but I did identify with Johnny’s indecision and metaphorical impotence. I thought that the development of characters and their relationships through the years are very well done. The unsolved mysteries kept me interested and reading on even when it felt like hard work. Towards the beginning especially I became frustrated by events and ranting that didn’t seem to be of any significance.

There were some nuggets of wisdom in the book, including my favourite: ‘IF YOU@RE LUCKY ENOUGH TO FIND A WAY OF LIFE YOU LOVE, YOU HAVE TO FIND THE COURAGE TO LIVE IT.’

The ending is truly magnificent. It’s definitely worth keeping going through the 600-odd pages to reach it. I sobbed as Owen’s fate unfolded. Much that is unexplained earlier finally falls into place. The revealed significances are like a tidal wave.

After I’d finished the book I knew there was more to it that I’d taken in on the first reading. I found some excellent chapter summaries and analysis on the SparkNotes website.

(24th in 2012)

This is the first book I’ve read with my reading group. I liked it a lot. It is very spooky and feels very close to home which I find to be a good combination. It’s written by someone very close to my age who grew up in the Midlands so I understood all her cultural references. Not only that but the shopping centre featured is based on the Merry Hill centre. I couldn’t find much to criticize in this at all. It’s a multi-faceted book, with both hilarious and poignant moments. It has a cracking mystery running through it and contains a thoughtful depiction of modern life.

(22nd in 2012)

I must admit that this wasn’t next on my ‘To Read’ list but I’d been investigating holidays on the Dorset coast and that brought the title to mind.

The front promises that it is ‘devastating’ which seemed a little dramatic for a book only 160 pages long. I wouldn’t say it is devastating but it did affect me. Ian McEwan is excellent at describing exactly what goes on inside his characters’ heads; I felt that I completely understood them. I love his precise prose. I didn’t enjoy every part of the book though, in fact I thought it sagged a little in the middle, but it perked up again towards the end. The finish itself was wonderfully poignant. It reminded me of one of the reasons why I love my husband: he would never have made the mistake that Edward made with Florence on Chesil Beach.

(21st in 2012)

I read almost all of this book in a single day. It is wonderfully easy to read. Written by a woman only three years older than I am, the book took me back to parts of my own childhood (Indians aren’t so different to Iranians in terms of cultural attitudes). I’m very impressed at how good Shappi’s memory is. She describes childhood episodes so honestly and in such detail that they really were a delight to read. I loved the stories of the older members of her extended family too. A welcome bonus was learning a little about Iran and its people. The book is very enjoyable indeed.

(20th in 2012)